Smiling

Thank you. For encouraging me.
Perhaps its alright to whine once in a while, feel em0 and cry or grumble. But after that, get up and get on with life ya. I'm back. At least i was truly happy last night.
I went to our friend Alvin's wedding. Yes, he's the always cheerful drummer. He and Mrs Alvin certainly spent a lot of effort in preparing last night's dinner, an entertaining and memorable one. Delicious food, cute videos of the loving couple and old friends from the bands seated around the table. I'm not a crowd, party kind of person, but i enjoyed the company around me. I was me, crappin quite a bit.

After the dinner, 5 of us went to the SAT3 for a drink..



Peaceful airport at 2am.



Relaxing, resting..



Coffee's here!



Ahhhh... Nice..

Huh?

Are you ok?
Yea..
But why?
Nothing..
Then?
Nothing la, just feeling sian lor..
Why are you feeling sian?
Don't know lei, just sian lor..

This conversation's common ya?
Often, this person is not feeling sian, he is actually annoyed or upset or troubled about something but choose to keep it within himself. At times i am like that too, not very healthy right?

Right at this moment, 5am? I'm feeling a little sian. Why? I don't know.. But if i search deep within, i know that i know.. I just don't wanna say it. NO, i am not seeking attention. Then why am i saying all these? Just feel like it. I'm a person who likes to have alot of space, freedom, privacy. And i usually show everyone the positive side of life. Even on this blog, i try to post only happy and crappy stuff, nothing negative and nothing that is deep and personal. Seems as though my life is just about fun and being happy and everyone being happy.(i realised i'm slowly losing this style) No i don't think i'm being fake. Then again, somebody once told me : Whether you like it or not, everyone is a little bit fake at times. Lets face it, applies to me as well. OK, i accept. It actually goes back to my mentality of wishing to live in a perfect, peaceful world..

I've got to learn to let go.. I always relax. Yes i always make time to relax, but am i really relaxed? Maybe only on the surface, but the truth is i haven't released whatever baggage i'm carrying. This one i really don't know..

Having said all these that i think isn't so positive, i still hope to encourage YOU. Yes, i got my own set of problems and worries. At work, relationship with others etc.. That's part of living. We will have to do our best to solve issues and improve situations.. At least try.. Things will work out somehow..

Anyway, its coming to 6am soon and Sam who is not a late night person is talking so much now. Don't know how much of it makes sense.. I'm going to bed le.